I Remember You

A poem to my father

Father God as I pray to you and pour out my heart on this tablet. Please hear the cry of your child. I know you can hear my heart beat because you shaped me and chose me. Father help me do you remember me. I’ve been praying to you since I was three. I’m having a heart attack struggling to keep this heart intact. All I want to do is make you proud! But why does it appear as if you have forsaken me? I have faith in you! The question is do you believe me when I speak? I know I don’t always talk sweet. Times when I don’t father listen to my heart beat there you’ll find wheat. Take me seriously for I am weak. I’m an outcast ready to throw in the towel. Father protect me for I rely on you for my safety. I have been mistreated, and spiritually abused as I pray to you, they prey on me. Oh, father protect me I am still a baby, please don’t let them suck the life out of me.

I’m writing to you because you said to put it on a tablet. As I write my soul bleeds! Is this because I put all my faith in you? I have faith in you bigger than a seed. This oblivious kid have big dreams now I’m despondent and disappointed. Because I remember the relationship we had when I was three as I prayed to you, I felt a sweet breeze while you rocked me asleep and wrapped your arms around me and spoke to me in my dreams. I pinky promised to be all you have chosen me to be. I remember I said that before I fell asleep. Father you chose me and wrote this life for me and made some promises to me. I’m desperate, draw near to me. Ouch! My heart aches, why is it that my heart bleeds. Today I’ll write it all down hopefully You’ll restore me and complete this sentence for me. Snooze I’m having an epiphany, I’m beginning to faint as a matter fact I’m writing this as I fall into a deep sleep. Hopefully this is all a dream. If not wrap your arms around me give me revelation like you did when I was three.

I love you God I’m no longer in REM sleep I remember you and I hope you (REM) remember me.